SCREAM!

Monday, August 18, 2008

And so today I went to a church of my friend. Its called Living Sanctuary Brethen Church in Hougang. Passed by that place many many times but did not it was called that. Anyway, the service timing is great for people like us who likes to sleep in a bit. Its 11.15am and it ends around 1pm so good length of service.

The worship is great as usual. When I say as usual, I meant that worshipping God is always great, no matter what the environment is. It is pretty much the same format like Charis and even COOS but mellower than COOS but as I said, that does not matter as far as worshipping God is concerned.

But I thank God for bringing me there today as the message strikes a chord in my heart. It bascially talks about our relationship between our parents and children.

Malachi 4:6 (New International Version)

"He will turn the hearts of the fathers to their children, and the hearts of the children to their fathers; or else I will come and strike the land with a curse."

That was one of the verses mentioned. But what strikes me is when the pastor mentioned that as Children, we should not find fault with our parents but to appreciate them and not take them for granted.

That brought tears to my eyes. The only reason why I did not break down and cry was the unfamiliar enevironment I was in but I know God knows how much it hurts. There are many things I really wanted to say and to do with my Dad but I could not anymore. It is true that I always look at my Dad and found fault in him and to be honest, I do not even remember whether I have said "I love you" to him while he was alive.

The wounds and hurts are still fresh because afterall it is only 5 months since he passed away. Images of him flashes past in my mind. How he felt before he died and I always wondered in his last final moments, did he utter for help from God. Would I see him in Heaven or because of what I did not do as a son, he may be suffering eternity in hell.

It is really painful to know that I have focus so much all my 31 years of life on myself, my own goals and dreams that I have neglected my parents. I called myself a devoted christian but yet I forgot the commandment of honouring my parents.

But yet today's message, while it reminded me of regrets in my life but it also brought on God's positive prompting to focus on my Mum. There is nothing to change the fact that my Dad passed away but I can always do something to change what I can do for my Mum.

And I am determined to do that.

On a lighter note, the English Premier League has started again. My weekends nights will be filled with meaning again haha. Just joking but football is a sport I really enjoyed watching. Been supporting Liverpool since I was 7. It runs in the family. So I hope this is a good season for us to finally win the 19th title that has eluded us for so so long.

LIVERPOOL FOR THE WIN!

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 12:04 AM

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Thursday, August 14, 2008

Today I wanna introduce/recommend some christian bands or bands with a christian message or a band made up of christians:

First Up!

BAND: DISCIPLE

INTRO: Christian Alternative Metal formed in 1992.
Their song "After The World" is not really the typical Alternative Metal song. But it is one of the best they have ever done. Do a search on the internet for some of their other songs. These are 2 of the best I dig.

AFTER THE WORLD

GAME ON

NEXT UP!

BAND: DEMON HUNTER

INTRO: Christian Metal Band.
Great band. Great songs. One of the few christians metal bands that infuse great melodies into metal.

NOT READY TO DIE

THROUGH THE BLACK

NEXT UP!

BAND: EXTOL

INTRO: CHRISTIAN NORWEGIAN DEATH METAL BAND.
Formed in 1993 . IT can be hard to appreciate such a genre but I like it. I also don't know why. Listen to them, maybe you can tell me why.

PEARL

ALRIGHT, thats all for today. Will do more when I have the time.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 8:04 PM

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Saturday, August 09, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE

It is Singapore's 43rd BIRTHDAY!!! Without sounding like a young girl gushing over a boyband, I must say I really love Singapore. To say that I am proud of Singapore's achievements in the short 43 years we have been independent is an understatement. I am really amazed at how far Singapore has come in a short time. Yes, it is really expensive to live Singapore nowadays and I guess it will get increasingly but this is where HOME is and where I can build a safe HOME with my LOVED ONES. So cheers to you SINGAPORE and have many many more great years ahead!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 12:33 PM

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Wednesday, August 06, 2008

In Loving Memory.....

I listened to this song from Altered Bridge countless times but tonight could be first time I heard it since my Father passed away in March. The song just reminded me how much I missed my Dad.

The lyrics are:

"Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me?

I really love him. But as I told Hanbin tonight. I really must move on. The world will not wait for me to move on. I can only forever long fo my Dad and God, can I just ask you for one thing, I just want to see my Dad again in heaven. Can I?

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 1:28 AM

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