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Friday, September 14, 2007

DIABETES. What is like to contract Diabetes at the age of 30?

We have heard of Diabetes so often that sometimes we take it lightly. My dad has Diabetes, in fact, it is hereditary in my family in the male descendants. My mum had a scare but since has medically proven she did not have diabetes.

Today, I received my medical report and everything else was ok except for my Obesity and my Glucose Level. My Glucose level is at a ridiculously high and though the report says that a single test is not definite in the diagnosis of diabetes - at least 2 tests results to confirm - the chance is high because of my obesity, my family history and the very high glucose level.

I have been worried for weeks but when I received the results today, I guess I did not react negatively.

Diabetes is not a disease. It just means a shift of responsibility. I have now to be more responsible for how I live my life. What I eat and what I drink, I have to be more prudent now.

I really thank God for the peace that is in me. Although nothing's confirmed yet and I am not self prophesizing that I will have diabetes. I am not even doubting God's ability to heal. He is a great God and it is precisely this knowledge that I have a great God that I am not afraid, even if I do have diabetes.

So in weeks to come when I go for my second test and still discover I have diabetes, and people ask me, what is like to contract diabetes at the young age of 30, I would say, well God loves me and He heals and diabetes is not the end of life but instead a beginning of another phase of life. Diabetes would not render what God promise in John 10:10 useless. I will always have a full and abundant life as long as I abide in Him

Amen.

To all my frens, continue to pray for me to continue to trust in God. I am also going for a chest xray tomorrow due to a persistent cough.

God bless you all, beloved ones.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 6:46 PM

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

I remembered a song I performed many years ago for my former church's year end celebration of thanksgiving to God.

That song was titled I Don't Know Why Jesus Loved Me By Andrae Crouch. It is a pretty old song and not a song that Shaoxiong adores.

But somehow when I was asked to perform the song and when I started to really dwell into the simple lyrics, I marvel at the profound meaning of the song of simple lyrics. I was touched to tears. And this song has always accompanied me and I still remember how to sing it till today, not because it is a damn fantastic song with great melodies but simply a song that reminds me everyday how much God loves me.

I would like to share the lyrics with everyone. May you realise the greatness of God's love.

I don't know why Jesus loved me
I don't know why He cared
I don't know why He sacrificed His life
Oh, but I'm glad, so glad He did

He left His mighty throne in glory
To bring to us redemption's story
Then He died but He rose again
Oh, but I'm glad, so glad He did.

Where would I be if Jesus didn't love me?
Where would I be if Jesus didn't care?
Where would I be if He hadn't sacrificed His life
Oh, but I'm glad, so glad He did

Here is the video:

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 11:49 PM

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