SCREAM!

Thursday, April 20, 2006

On Good Friday which is last Friday, we had a scare. I was watching TV late around 1am when my dad came out of the room and wanted to go toilet. He told me he is feeling feverish and I became very worried. For those who did not know, my dad has been diagnosed with a rare and incurable condition called Primary Sclerosis Cholangitis since March last year. Symptoms like fevers could mean deterioation of the condition. So there I was wanting to take him to hospital immediately (that was what the doctors advised). So he went into the toilet and change. While he was in the toilet, I heard him making noises and I went in immediately...he was holding onto the sink and he was just shivering and suddenly he just collapsed. But thank God I was there to hold on to him, I would not want to imagine what would happen if he fell. At his age, a fall could result in many things. I was praying in my heart, God please let my dad be ok...and amazingly he sat down, had 2 panadols and he felt better. Thank God for that.

Anyway the very next day, I was about to go out and my Mum called me to say my Dad is shivering again and having very bad fever. I went to his shop immediately and brought him to the doctor and to my relief, the diagnosis was that of Urinary Tract Inflammation which could be cured with antibiotics.

I was very relieved but it also brought alot of things to mind. Whether I should go back into a salaried job. Right now, my parents do not depend on me but I hate to imagine what would happen if my dad collapses. I am in a dilemma. Right now, I am looking for a full time job that will again give me a decent salary but I pray that God will bless me with a job that will give me time too. Through these 2 months of scrimping, I realise the importance of relying on God. It is my prayer that when I do go back to a job which pays a monthly salary that I will not lose my dependence on God. Pray for me and with me.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 2:51 PM

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Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is medium.
You probably have had a couple significant loves.
And you may have even had your heart broken.
But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is medium.
You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...
But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.
You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.

Independence:

Your independence is high.
You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.
Having your own life is very important for you...
Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 2:50 PM

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

Is there a better song than this? To me. No.

Smells Like Teen Spirit
By Nirvana
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Load up on guns and bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's over bored and self assured
Oh no, I know a dirty word

Hello, hello, hello, how low (x3)
Hello, hello, hello!

With the lights out, it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yay! (x3)

I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

Hello, hello, hello, how low (x3)
Hello, hello, hello!

With the lights out, it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
Yay! (x3)

And I forget just why I taste
Oh yeah, I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard, it was hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind

Hello, hello, hello, how low (x3)
Hello, hello, hello!

With the lights out, it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido

A denial !! (x9)

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 2:22 AM

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

SPLINTERED THEORY

yeah thats the name of my new band. Those who knew of my first band,GAS, we are still around but dormant. We are not really jamming and not seeking gigs the rest are really busy. But we are looking forward to put down a recording which we have procastinated about since last year. I hope we will get it done, really...I love these guys, we have been together for 7 years, especially Joe and Josh... the good old times when we were just jamming and jamming....and Gerald and Liwei, who joined us so much later...young but talented...i hope you all will expand your talents for God, even if it is not with GAS.

Anyway, with my new band, we have been jamming consistently every week for the last 2 months. We have got a gig lined up in June most probably on the 8th and 9th. We are playing 2 slots. That will be the band's first gig. But all the guys have played in various bands before so I dun think stage fright should get to us. Nevertheless, I believe we will still be nervous hehehe.... These bunch of guys have been great. The band dynamics is starting come in as we jam for new ideas on original songs. We have got a few great originals laid down and are looking to do more.

LOOK OUT FOR SPLINTERED THEORY.

GOD bless us all.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 10:47 PM

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Submitting to God is a daily thing

I discover this for a fact with my current situation. For those who read earlier entries and whom I have talked to would know what I am talking about.

Last night was out with a few friends at Shaw House Macs after the band jamming. We begin talking about my passion for music. One of my friends feel that we should separate our passion and dreams from reality. While I am a firm believer of having enough to live by while living your dreams. I mean, sure, there are some who are living their dreams and and are rich. But if we have a choice, should not we, while we are young, pursue your dreams and passion. Alot of people say that this is not possible in PRACTICAL SINGAPORE. I say "EXCUSES!!" Nobody can dictate what is practical and what is not EXCEPT yourself. If you think only by earning $5000 a month is practical, that will be it. Seriously, how much do you need in Singapore to survive? $2000? $1000? Its how you make of it, isnt it? Nobody is asking you to beg or eat bread for the rest of your life. But if we are honest with ourselves, we would agree we do not really need as much as we think we do to survive in Singapore.

And here we go blaming the society for what WE CHOOSE to be and do. If you choose to earn lesser and pursue your dreams, would not that be the best of both worlds? It takes a paradigm shift. The real fool is the one who goes after what he cannot keep. You go be rich. I go chase my dreams. I get to keep the memories. What do you keep? At the end when we die, maybe all you have is a bigger pile of ash than mine.

Anyway wanna share an old song that ministered to me. God bless us all.

"There is a longing only You can fill

A raging tempest only You can still

My soul is thirsty Lord

To know You as I'm known

Drink from the river

That flows before Your throne

Take me deeper

Deeper in love with You

Jesus hold me close in Your embrace

Take me deeper

Deeper than I've ever been before

I just want to love You more and more

How I long to be deeper in love

Sunrise to sunrise

I will seek Your face

Drawn by the Spirit

To the promise of Your grace

My heart has found in You

A hope that will abide

Here in Your presence

Forever satisfied"

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 8:28 PM

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Saturday, April 01, 2006

The Legendary APRIL FOOL Post

As long as there were APRIL FOOL, there have been songs about it. Today I have written a song of APRIL FOOL. It goes like this

SANG TO THE TUNE OF "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

Happy April Fool To You~~~~

Happy April Fool To You~~~~

If You Are Really Singing This Song~~

You Are Such A Bloody Fool~~~~

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 10:15 PM

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