SCREAM!

Friday, August 31, 2007

Tomorrow Will Be Better Lah....

or at least according to this song lah.....

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Monday, August 27, 2007

Angry and Frustrated.

With myself.

I have always proclaimed I love my father and mother and they are very important to me. But I realised it's all empty words. I keep thinking my Dad' s birthday is this tuesday when its actually Sunday, yesterday. How can I forget about these things when I keep saying I love them. Some may say its not a big deal but these small things reflect how much I really care.

My relationship with my dad has not always been a good one. We do not hate each other but neither am I sure whether do we love each other. We hardly talked. We hardly showed any concern for each other. When I was younger, I even think that he is not fit to be called father cos to me, what has he done? Was giving money all to being a father?

This changed when he fell sick and was diagnosed with Primary Sclerosis Cholangitis, an incurable disease affecting the bile ducts of the liver in 2005 March. I can still remember when it happens, that reality set in, and that my dad is growing old; he is 62 this year and he may just leave me before I realised it is too late. Our relationship improved, not tremendously, but definitely we showed more concern for one another. For one, I make sure I am always there when he goes for a check up and making sure he takes his medicine.

I thought I have done well so far, but forgetting his birthday again brings me back to reality of how much do I really love my father. When I look at my father, I see how much he aged from a strong person to a thin, frail and hunchbacked old man, I cry silently sometimes. But still, whats the point of saying all these when my actions do not reflect it. I am really ashamed and angry with myself.

When will I ever learn to treasure my loved ones?

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Friday, August 24, 2007

The first time I was reminded of the song, People Need The Lord, was in the last prayer walk for July's MSG. I was doing the prayer walk in the vicinity of the small streets like Hong Kong Street and as I look into the shops where people are still working, I always wonder have they known Jesus? Would their lives be any different if they did? Would they just go on and on everyday in that shop without knowing Jesus?

Just now, Pam showed me the news of the accident this morning on the PIE towards Changi where a car and lorry carrying people got into the accident and overturned. One person died. I remember praying when I heard the news that there would be no death but well it happened. The person who died is a foreign talent and upon hearing the news, again the song People Need The Lord, sprang into my mind.

Everyday they pass me by,
I can see it in their eye.
Empty people filled with care,
Headed who knows where?
On they go through private pain,
Living fear to fear.
Laughter hides their silent cries,
Only Jesus hears.
People need the Lord, people need the Lord.
At the end of broken dreams, He's the open door.
People need the Lord, people need the Lord.
When will we realize -- people need the Lord?
We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong seems right.
What would be too great a cost
For sharing Life with one who's lost?
Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear.
They must hear the Words of Life
Only we can share.
People need the Lord, people need the Lord
At the end of broken dreams, He's the open door.
People need the Lord, people need the Lord.
When will we realize that we must give our lives,
For people need the Lord.
People need the Lord.

I guess the song speaks for itself. I remember coming across many foreign talents who came to Singapore in hope of a better life. But they end up dead in Singapore. Their only hope was in earning more money to give their families a better life but how I wish they would come to know Jesus.

People Need The Lord. What am I doing about it?

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

HEY WAIT! I GOT A NEW COMPLAINT!

I am very pissed off with something lah. You know everyday when I reach home around 7 plus or 8 plus, the carpark at my house there is very full lor! I bought season parking but still these cars seem to always reach home earlier than me, ALWAYS ONE! They always take up my favourite spots and as a result, I have to park further away and walk further to my house. I am very tired already lah then still got to park so far. HOW CAN THESE BLOODY CARS REACH HOME SO EARLY!!! THEY DUN NEED TO WORK MEH?!!!!

After I analysed the situation, I can only think of one reason why they can come home so early. They should be "HIGH LEVEL" employees in their companies, that is why they can come home early one and leave others to do the jobs.

BUT THEN! If they are that high level, they probably would not be staying in a flat in little simei, they would be staying in some house in *Holland/Orchard/RIver Valley (*delete where applicable) Road. So since they are unlikely to be HIGH LEVEL employees, I can only come to one CONCLUSION.

THEY ARE................

SLACKERS! CHAO KENG! CHEAT COMPANY MONEY!

Thats why they can come back so early. DAMN!

HDB there are not enough LOTS for me leh! YOU HEAR ME OR NOT!

I WANT A CARPARK LOT FOR MY CAR ONLY LAH! NEAR NEAR TO MY LIFT ONE....DUN SO FAR CAN?

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Thursday, August 16, 2007

I am an introvert. Have I told you that?

Most people would gasp in disbelief if I would to use that word on myself. How could crappy, lamey Ng Seow Siong be an introvert.

BUT. Its true. In my previous company, I had a professional coach and mentor who meets up with me and we talk. In one of our sessions, we did an intensive personality test and one of the results came out as "INTROVERT". I myself could not believe it then and my coach asked me to just take the results and ponder over it.

And the more I ponder, I find that it is true. Although I am an extrovert, or I seem to be, I was not always like that. I became like that only later in my life. I remember I was a pretty quiet kid who was always mischievious but yes quiet. I do not have alot of friends, I do not play with my cousins, all maybe because I was pretty much rejected as a kid. I was a very fat kid, even till now. My cousins do not want to play with me well because I am fat and clumsy. I do not have many friends well because I am fat and clumsy. When I had my first crush on a girl in primary school, the rejection was not as nice and subtle like when you are an adult (i.e. Oh we better just be friends or Oh I do not wish to be in a relationship right now.). The rejection was an outright, you are so fat and ugly, who will like you?

But thank God I did not wallow in self pity but instead choose to love myself and so allow others to accept and love me too. I do not know when it all started but somewhere along my life, I became the Shaoxiong you see today. I call 'extrovert' my SOCIAL BEHAVIOUR while 'introvert' my INNER SELF.

Even now, I see the 'introvert' in me now and then. Just ask my friends who known me for a long time. I can stay at home by myself for weeks and weeks without going out with them or contacting them. Alot of times, I feel so much happier by myself. Selfish right haha! But well, no choice lah, thats me.

I like doing alot of things by myself. Reading, going to a pub to down a few beers, sitting at a cafe people watching, watching movies etc. Even on a group tour, I would tend to derail from the group and go somewhere else all by myself. I must admit, I have very selfish thoughts because the reason why I like to do things myself is that I do not have to entertain another person. I do not have to consider the other person's feelings or interests or whatever when I make a decision on where to go, what to eat and when to go. What seems like a normal group behaviour irates me alot sometimes. Therefore, my aloneliness sometimes.

Somebody asked me before, won't you feel lonely then? But to quote a line from Bon Jovi's Bed Of Roses "Tonight I won't be alone, but that don't mean I'm not lonely" Similarly, I may be alone, but that don't mean I am lonely.

But to all my friends out there, dun worry lah, i am afterall still a social creature, i still exhibit my EXTROVERT side most of the times but the next time if you see me quiet and maybe cant seem to get me out for anything, just know I am just being MYSELF.

God bless all!

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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Just recalled a mini argument cum discussion last Saturday night, watching the Liverpool match and over some wine at Mohd Sultan, on what happened during my poly days and it went onto a discussion what I think about relationship and love vs what Ryan the Botaklops thought. In short he said I am too logical and rational about love and relationships. While of course I think he is too emotional and too led by the heart. He is not wrong but I am also not wrong lah. I think its best if you can balance both logic and emotions in love but thats usually the most difficult part isnt it haha. I guess I have quite a problem there haha. BUT thank God, His love never change. YEAH!

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

BEST DUET SONG. EVER.

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Monday, August 13, 2007

"Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires." 2 Peter 1:4

When a shipbuilder builds a ship, he would have build the ship with storms and hurricanes in mind. The ship must be built to withstand the crushing waves and relentless rain that will come onto the ship as it sails into the seas. In fact, if he does not take those into consideration, he is not a good shipbuilder.

Similarly when God promises something, his promises are not just for 'show'. His promises are good for the hardest times and worst trials you could possibly go through. His promises will not just bring you through good times and not so good times. His promises will bring you through all the time. God is the best shipbuilder because he has taken all our trials and test into consideration and we can put our fullest trust into the Divine Shipbuilder.

This is monday and we will all have a good week ahead. Not because only good things will happen to us but because we have a good God with us.

Amen.

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Saturday, August 11, 2007

I am almost always happy but I do have my moments too. Today I pondered alot over of a certain event in my life that happen a decade ago while I was in the 3rd year of my poly. Those memories are not pleasant ones and to be honest, that event and those memories shaped a part of me which you see now. I would not deny that this incident made me shun away from certain committments in life. It always pop into my mind now and then and sometimes I thought I had gotten over it or maybe it does not have that big an impact on me and I most probably would not see that person again, but sometimes I just wondered have I really forgotten and more importantly, forgiven, that person and myself. I guess it is something I need to grapple with God and let it come to a conclusion.

On a upbeat note, I went ahead to the dinner appointment supposedly with just PAMELA and MILTON. For the last few days, I just felt it was weird why PAMELA and MILTON would just ask me out for dinner and just the 3 of us. When I reached Blooies in Siglap, I saw not only PAM and MILTON, there was RACHEL and AARON too. (DEX was supposed to come but I guess he was too sexed up), All was revealed then. They wanted to appreciate me for sending them home for the past 2 months or so. PAMELA, although I did not look surprised, I was genuinely touched by this gesture and I thank YOU for arranging this with the rest and the guys and girls, It felt great to be appreciated. Thanks for the warm and fuzzy feeling you left in me hahaha, though I looked tired lah!

It was nice to be appreciated though I think I did not do much. To me, driving people home is a blessing and having a car to drive myself and people home reminds me of how blessed I am by God. Still, I wanna thank these peeps for making my day. There are people or so called friends who demands that I drive them home or bring them around (its true, I have people like that in my life) but you peeps, I just feel blessed to make sure you all reach home safely every time.

BIG THANKS to JESUS and BURPEE PAM, TOYBOY MILTON, EATNOTHING RACH, SEX DEX and our latest nicknamed member - PUSS-AARON!!

Talking about cars, it really reminded me of the blessings that comes from God regarding cars and I dedicate my thanks to God as I think about for the last 4 years that I owned a car.

In 2003, when I finished my degree in marketing and advertising, I expected myself to be like every single struggling graduate and look for a entry level job. After 3 months of searching, through friends and thanks to God, I found a job that pays me way above what a fresh grad would get and thus enabled me to get a first car. BLESSING NUMBER ONE and TWO!

My first car was a KIA. It was a second hand car as I thought it was more prudent since it is my first time owning a car. Unfortunately, I need to put in a deposit which I do not have. Enter my mum and she readily loaned me the money. BLESSING NUMBER THREE! But after that, I was told because of my age, I needed a GUARANTOR who is a non family member who is of a certain age etc or else I would not be given a loan approval. When I was running out of ideas, I talked to PASTOR DANIEL LEE and guess what, he agreed to to my guarantor! BLESSSING NUMBER FOUR!

ONE WEEK ON, I got into my first accident. I knocked into a MPV while turning out from church. I was terrified but thank God, the other family in the car was safe and the driver was a christian and even assured me it is ok and to calm down. All was settled for a minimal sum and all was well. BLESSING NUMBER FIVE.

One year on in 2004, my KIA was getting worse and the need to maintain it every month was eating into my savings and after some calculations, I realised I could trade in my car without making a loss and I decided to go ahead and buy a new car since it makes more sense. I chose a Honda City which is the one I am still driving today. I remember it was 13th Aug 2004. I just returned on that morning from a mission trip to Chiangmai and I was full of excitement as I collected the car. BLESSING NUMBER SIX.

However, in 2 months time, something happened that totally change me. HONDA CITY was a a great car. As a 1.5 litre car, it can outrun quite a number of cars and I enjoy zipping in and out and speeding in the car. I remember it was in October 2004, I was entering the roundabout from KJE that will lead me to BKE (PIE), it was raining and I went in at 90km/hr hoping to overtake the slow lorry in front of me. I overtook the lorry, increase my speed but all of sudden I realise that roundabout was too steep for my speed and I step on my brakes. On stepping my brakes, my car went into a spin. And as the car spin, I saw the lorry I just overtook coming towards me and other cars all just missing me. I thought either I am going to die and seriously injured. What about my car, it is gonna be so damaged. After almost an eternity and many spins, my car came to a halt, just centimetres away from banging into the metal railings. I escape with no injuries, no damage to the surrounding, damages to the car that amounted to $300 and of course a thankful heart to God for being given a 2nd chance to more responsible in my driving. BLESSING NUMBER SEVEN.

So you see, I thank God for the many blessings. That is why I thank God I still have a car today and I am able to drive people home because through the issue of cars, God enabled me to see and count the blessings I have received from him. Every day as I drive, I am reminded of the 2nd chance I am given to be a testimony on the road and so I thank you Jesus, Hallelujah.

Thats it for today folks.

Count your blessings too.

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Thursday, August 09, 2007

Friends

This entry is a tribute to friends in my life. I think friends are an extension of God's grace and companionship on earth. While no one can replace God, I think friends make living in this world more bearable and meaningful.

Ever since I joined Sonic Edge again, it has been a refreshing change for me in terms of spiritual feeding and also in fellowship. I am glad to see old friends again and new faces. Old friends who are welcoming and new friends who are nice too. In the past, I guess I did not take alot of effort to know the people in Sonic Edge and I guess I am now taking more time to hang out with the peeps and enjoying the fellowship. Thanks SONIC EDGE PEEPS!

I would like to especially thank the EASTIE PEEPS, namely SEX DEX, TOYBOY MILTON, BURPEE PAM and EATNOTHING RACHEL. I thank you all for being friends and the many times we hang out for supper. For DEX AND MILTON, known you all for so long but never had the chance to know you all better and I guess its not too late to start now. As for PAM and RACHEL, the 2 new girls in my life HAHAHA! I really love your company and thanks for putting up with my crap and I have 2 more GIRL-FRIENDS in my life now...WOOHOO~~~ Just remember I am HBS can already. WHAHAHAHA

I would like to take this time thank a special friend, RYAN LOW HON PUN. Pardon me for using your full name haha. Firstly, wish you a God blessed 30th birthday on 08 Aug 2007.

It has been 17 years since we knew each other in Secondary One in Pasir Ris Secondary School. You have not grown any taller since hahaha. I thank God really for friends like you and Xiaojun, that Sissy of course haha but I am sincere in thanking you for being a friend, a true friend.

Below are things I may not have told you before but this comes from my heart.

I remember when I became a christian. That was back in 29 Jul 1994. You were in the same poly as me in Ngee Ann. Later on when I subsequently shared christianity with you and invited you to church, do you remember you told something like this "Oh I am the devil, I will melt if I go to church." in a half joking manner. At that time, I wonder is it because you do not see Christ in me and I was just being a bad example that you do not see why you should believe in Christ.

When you were diagnosed with cancer, there were many times I cried. I asked God why did He let it happen to you. I did not know what to do except to pray for you. I remember I went to the hospital with you and I remember the doctor telling us that yours is acute lekeumia and there was no specific cause and if without treatment, six months could be all you have.

I admire your courage because if it was me, I could have just broken down there and then. The only thing back then I could help is to bring you whenever I can to bring you for the chemo and radiotherapy. I remember how your bed would be full of blood and how you would so weak and needed help to sit up and just to walk. But yet you do not want to give up. And you know there were people in your shoes who seemed to have recovered but later passed away due to complications but you did not give you. And, see where you are now. You are officially in remission for a long time now and I know God will continue to bless you.

It was also during this period that you came to believe in Christ and grabbing that second chance in life. And I know you struggle with the fact that because of cancer, alot of opportunities were lost but I would like to encourage you, you have actually gain more than alot of us in this world. You gained life. You gained another chance in life.

And I think because of the few little favours I did for you, you never seemed to reject me when I needed help. From helping me to repair computers for free to even lending me money when I was down and out, you always are there for me. You are always patient with me, in fact with most people like Sissy hahaha. I believe its because you think you owe me something or what because I help you that little bit during your cancer period. But I guess I owe you more than you owe me but I know you would tell me, thats what friends are for.

So Ryan aka Hanbin aka Botaklops, I love you as a brother in Christ and as a friend. I know sometimes I can over react especially when times you are late or what. I apologise and I am sorry. You are really a true friend in my life and I would you to know I treasure the friendship of yourself and Sissy. I would regret if I would ever lose you as a friend because I know you are a blessing from God. And to you I want to say, do not look down on yourself and do not judge yourself based on the material things of this world. Seek God first and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.

So thank you for being my friend and once again, a happy blessed Birthday.

And to all my friends, though I did not mention everyone here. Every single friend I have makes me who I am today. I treasure your friendships alot. Your friendships accompany me through many lonely nights whahahahaha....that sounded wrong but it is true. I thank God for all my friends and I pray God will bless every single one of you.

Thank you Jesus for my friend, blessed be your name and bless my friends.

And ya, Happy Birthday SINGAPORE.

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Monday, August 06, 2007

HAHA! Too bored and now is lunchtime and too lazy to go out for lunch. This morning have to come for meeting at 930am and considering I slept at 5am...I was pretty zombified in the meeting room but still it was a good one as I ironed out quite a number of issues with the customer and hopefully it will work well for the rest of the year.

AND SO, I did a KNOW MYSELF BETTER test haha....and i will include my inputs to analyse the results. My inputs in BLUE.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. - Yes I am straight forward and I am down to earth but I do like to dream sometimes haha. I like to solve problems but I wonder how efficient I am lah.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. - Yes I do fancy smart and determined people. Of course can be serious but not so serious until cannot stand my crap lah. It is not true I do not judge a book by its cover. I still like pretty faces BUT everyone's definition of PRETTY is different and so all I can say, I know what is PRETTY to me and I don't care who others find pretty.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. - TRUE. VERY TRUE. But just a matter of when lah hahahaha

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? - No i do not behave seductively. In fact, I am prim and proper when it comes to girls. I do not like to touch girls anyhow, even a simple hug or touch on their shoulders or arms or whatever, I am not really comfortable with that unless I know the girl well. I am confident enough to know there are opposite sex who fancies me despite my not so good looks haha but of course its not as if they come in drones! Nay I just need ONE. Need so many for what haha.

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. - IT is very TRUE.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy. - This is also VERY TRUE. Although the format I like to work in is never in the corporate world but I still find the corporate setting a very challenging place to be in and as long the job provides me with reasonable pay and plenty of challenges, I will stay in the job.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. - I am confident yes. But it is no longer important to me and I am not about to stoop to anything to achieve success. If it comes, it comes. God will bless me surely.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. - THIS IS THE MOST WRONG LAH! I wear clothes whatever I like and of course, being restricted physically, I wear whatever fits me haha. I think all I seek is like I am comfortable how I look and I must at least look covered and decent haha.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. - I find this true too. I like to think I give good advice most times. Despite my crappy self, I am glad alot of my close friends understand who I really am and I appreciate them seeking my advice when they need some, not because it boosts my ego but I appreciate the fact they think that as a friend, I would be able to listen to them or give them some advice or would be able to help them. It makes the friendship more wonderful isnt it hehe.

So there you are! SHAOXIONG in a nutshell. If you think the analysis of myself is wrong. GET LOST LAH!

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Sunday, August 05, 2007

Congrats to Sunny and Tammy.

There is always a warm and fuzzy feeling inside me whenever I see people getting married. 2 people who are totally different and who were strangers, knew each other, came together and decide to spend the rest of their life together (ok. Divorce statistics may prove this is not entirely true always haha). To me, marriage is a miracle. It is not easy for 2 different sets of ego and thinkings to come together and work out a compromise that allows both parties to be happy. Therefore, whenever I see a happy marriage or people getting married, I thank God for that because it's not easy.

That coming from me, that sounds weird. Its like hearing a vegan saying how excited he is when he sees someone eating meat. People who knows me for quite a fair bit of time would know I have a committment phobia towards another person especially where the realms of emotions are concerned. Had coffee with some frens after the wedding dinner tonight and everyone there was married except for me and another lady. Naturally, the topic revolves about the wedding and of course, as they would always ask, when is YOUR turn? And my response? Well, some people are suitable for marriage, some are not. I am the latter. At least for now.

Anyway I am young lah! I would only by 30 this December and life has just began. Everyone complains "No time leh!" Then how on earth did you find time for a girlfriend or wife or kids!!? So I say, Enjoy yourself until you are sick and tired of being alone, then get married lah. But having said that, if the government give me many many incentives to get married, I will lah. So government, you all know what to do lah huh.

So till November where another of my fren will bite the dust on the red carpet, I shall carry on with my free free free life.

Feeling warm and fuzzy,

Your neighbourhood Cai Png Man

I love CAI PNG. Anyone sponsor?

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Saturday, August 04, 2007

It has been a while.

A year has passed since I joined Philips and I really thank God that I am doing very well over there. I have opportunities there. Plenty. I am moving next year to another division and that is a good move for me in terms of my career.

And to be honest, my life seems pretty good now. Not fantastic, but good. I have a good job, a good boss, good colleagues, attending another church, joining Sonic Edge Cell again after a long time, knowing good people. But somehow I just don;t want a GOOD life. I want to have a life that makes a difference.

Like I always said, I no longer see the importance of climbing the corporate ladder, I no longer see the importance of earning as much as I can, I do not even see the importance to outshine another person at work.

I am frustrated. I am a happy person but many times, I am frustrated. I want to leave Singapore just for a few years and see the world. I mean I have travelled but I really want to SEE the world. I want to experience another culture. I want to see how I fit into the scheme of things in this big world that God created. And I guess I just have to pray. I am praying that my job can take me places, again not for the money, but to see places and the people whom I never had the chance to see before.

My good friend, *TTG*, has submitted his resignation on Monday and he really handled very badly and to be serious, my boss was very disappointed not by him leaving but by how he is leaving. I shall not say more but *TTG*, you know how I feel about this whole issue and I guess there is one thing I have said to you only once when we barely knew each other but I now want to say to you again. God still loves you. He still does and always will.

On a brighter note, going back to Sonic Edge has really make my past 2 months very fruitful. I love the peeps there and seriously Sonic Edge has always been in my heart since I was with them in 1999. I got back into the cell and SE has changed alot. For the better and I know SE will have to move on and see itself not just as a platform for musicians to come together but as a ministry to minister to people regardless of interest, culture or maturity. I want to be part of the movement that will change my life and through my life, change the lives of others.

The peeps there I meet are great...the old frens like Dex, Milton, Gordon, Chris, Marcus, John Chiong, Jon Chan, Liana, Jon Hems, Zhen Fang.....and of cos new faces like Pamela, Rachel, Shawn, Kevin and people like Lyndon whom is a great fren and bandmate and many many many many others

I love you all lah. You all love me or not. Anyway

~~SOMEONE~~ PAMELA ask me to update blog lah...so I DEDICATE THIS ENTRY to that ~~SOMEONE~~ PAMELA lah....

To that ~~SOMEONE~~ PAMELA, you are a very bubbly person and very nice to talk to and crap with and I know you will agree I am a cute young boy. I thank you in advance.

Alright, peeps, I will update again in time to come when I feel like it lah huh....if you not happy, call police.

OK!

God bless you all lah!

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