And there it is, the alarm clock. Still working, still running and still ringing. But it is never the same anymore. Some things should never be gotten used to. Some things should never be taken granted of. Because one day when you realise you truly need the ringing of the alarm clock, it may never tick, it may never run and it may never ring again.
Doesn't the alarm clock reminds us of life?
It does to me. Because my alarm clock will never ring again.
Funny But Not A Clown
screamed @ 5:39 AM
Funny But Not A Clown
screamed @ 2:01 AM
Funny But Not A Clown
screamed @ 2:24 AM
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My life has moved on. Not that I want it to. But it has moved on, whether I want it to or not. I have gone back to work and work is the same. Busier than ever with all the product launches, the usual rubbish you get from work and people. I use to see work as a means for my lifestyle. But now work has taken a new dimension. I need work because I need to support the family. I am not saying the family needs ALOT of money but there is this sense of responsibility and if I have to be honest, I do not like it one bit. But I have to take it up. Who else does my mother has to support the family, except me?
Somehow I feel different. I still make the same jokes, i still speak the same crap. Outside I am back to the Shaoxiong of the past, at least I think so but inside something changed. My life has moved on but my memories have not. My mind has not. My mind is still stuck on the 14th Mar 2008 when my father died. That was unfair. That was really unfair. And no matter how much my life has moved on, I can never forget how unfair life has been on my Dad.
I felt that there is nothing so important in this world anymore. I would never know whether my Dad was ever proud of me. All I wanted was to know whether have I done anything that my Dad can be proud of as his son. I will never have the chance. I was never given the chance. Make it up to my mum then, they say. But Mum is Mum, she is important but she can never replace my Dad and my Dad can never replace Mum. I want to hear my Dad tell me that he is proud of me. I DO NOT WANT anyone else to tell me that my dad was proud of me. YOU ARE NOT MY DAD. MY DAD IS BLOODY DEAD. UNFAIRLY DEAD. AND NO ONE EXCEPT MY DAD CAN BLOODY TELL ME THAT HE IS PROUD OF ME. AND SINCE HE IS DEAD, HE CANNOT TELL ME THAT SO STOP *Edit: I am sorry I cursed.* TELL ME TO MOVE ON.
And so life has moved on. But I cursed the day my Dad was taken away. It was unfair and damn the bloody hell that says I need to move on. I can never MOVE ON. I can never MOVE ON. How can I ever MOVE ON?
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I am difficult to understand and I hate to be understood. I am best left alone.
Just be my friend but do not ever try to show me that you understand me better than myself. I am a loyal person and everyone is my friend
until he or she chooses not to be. Actually that is quite easy to understand right. If you hit the right note with me, you will find me very easy going.
I love music. And I love writing music and jamming with my band. Music has accompanied me through the worst times of my life. I thank God for that gift.
I am different and I am not afraid to be different. I hate politically correct people. Its alright to be courteous but not right to be a hypocrite.
I am funny. I love to be funny. I am not afraid to make fun of myself to bring laughter to others. I love making others happy. But I am not a clown.
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