SCREAM!

Friday, March 31, 2006

Haiz....

God forgive me...

Finances still get to me sometimes. Here I am lying down on my bed and the thought of paying off some bills came into my mind...and I wonder where do I get the money from. Its not like these things are new to me. I have been struggling with this for the last 2 months and as I said before, I trust in God's providence.

But still, I am human. I wander off.

I really like to head up and look forward to the day where I can put critics who say "Who ask you lah, quit your job." or "Its your own fault lah that you are struggling with finances" to shame, Not for my own pride but for your glory and honour.

I love you Lord.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 12:36 AM

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

WHAT ON EARTH WAS STEVEN GERRAD THINKING OF?

I cannot believe how he was sent off in last nite's liverpool vs everton derby match. After just 18 minutes, he was red carded. I mean he should really reflect on his actions and know that he could have cost LIVERPOOL a vital win. Sure, it was the derby but to go in 2 footed a minute after you were yellow carded is hardly a mark of a great leader. Having said that, Gerrad is still a great player but needs to rein in that kind of in the heat of the moment thingy.

For the record, LIVERPOOL won 3-1. FOUR STRAIGHT WINS. 18 GOALS in 4 MATCHES. Are we good or what.

Went to church this morning, sang for Priscilla's worship, not very satisfied with my singing this time round cos I think the keys are too low for me. But still all glory goes to God, it is not about me, it is about GOD.

After that went for lunch with Serene, Terence(her BF) and Celia, Serene's friend. Cannot believe how much a slim and pretty girl like CELIA can EAT SO MUCH and she EATS stuff like PORK KNUCKLES, FATS AND ALL.......she just wun grow fat i think...lucky her haha. We crack jokes about many things which I forgot what. Haha.

Now back at home. Some of the nightlifers wanted to go Essential Brew tonite. I want to go but I have my $5 policy to upkeep for the sake of my own financial status. I missed going out with them but I guess I have to be sensible in such times.

Take care peeps. I love you all. Please love me too kekekeke

Ciaoz.

God bless.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 5:00 PM

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Saturday, March 25, 2006

Went into JB this morning with Joe and GF, Pris, Chris and GF, Jol. We went spent quite some time at the workshop doing up Chris's gear boot. In the end, it was not done and can see Chris was pretty pissed off with the workshop peeps. But well we went for a good lunch of Bak Kut Teh, Sesame Chicken and Salted Veggies haha. NICE NICE NICE...just like me... NICE NICE NICE.

Reached home around 5pm and gonna stay home until 7 plus and send my mum to my auntie's house at CCK and then rush back to watch LIVERPOOL THRASHED EVERTON at 830pm.

As usual, I will stay home today again. Maybe meeting the same guys mentioned above for kopi after the match.

Tiring.

Tomorrow's worship...I realised I dun have a white shirt...I do not have one but it looks like a school uniform...see how tomorrow hahaha.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 6:03 PM

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Friday, March 24, 2006

TIRED.

Physically.

Is it all worth it?

Yes it is.

Today went to house viewing with an American couple. Nice peeps. Hope I can close this deal.

Sleep.

Not enough.

For Everything Else.

There is always MuscleButt.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 6:48 PM

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

I have been wondering for the last one month whether I made the right choice in my new job. I am sure that God wants me to leave my previous job but maybe this new job is not what is planned for me? I am seriously struggling financially. This is something I have not faced for the last 3 years. I had not saved ANYTHING from what I earned for the past 3 years. YES. NOTHING.

But yet, I feel a certain sense of serenity in me. Its like God telling me to trust in Him and not to worry. Some would think this is escapism but I think it is putting your hope in the right places and person. This is a difficult time for me. I thank God that I have Him with me because throughout this whole period of me deciding to quit my job and moving on despite knowing that financial difficulties might set in, I have always felt this peace that things would move on fine. So I guess its time to keep trusting God and also do my part in spending lesser, which means lesser expensive outings to clubs and pubs and restaurants.

God, I thank you because You PROVIDE. ALWAYS.

WORK: I am still feeling my way around. I have pretty nice colleagues. It helps that you do not see them everyday, thus lesser friction. I have closed 2 deals. Not much commission, but every single cent, I thank God for it. I guess this is a way of teaching me to live within my means and be contented.

Some asked me whether is it truly worth it to leave my previous company which is paying well to jump into the unknown especially at my age?

My answer: it is. WHY? Because I am happier.

God bless all of us and trust in Him always.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 7:51 PM

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I have started blogging again after a 2 years break. Weird why I felt compelled to blog again. Maybe I am tired. Maybe because I changed my job. Maybe because my life is changing. It is time to rest in God. It is time to really rest and not just run.

I really wonder about the issue of death. Not that I am looking forward to it. But I just think that people give death too little time and thoughts. As the changes in my life take place, I really wonder sometimes whether it is a beginning of the end. I know I will end well. I hope.

God help me.

You are my ONLY Hope.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 12:17 AM

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