SCREAM!

Monday, September 11, 2006

Random.

Thats how one of my frens described me. He says he will never know what things I will say, what jokes I will crack and how my mood will swing and how my attitude will be. And I like that. Maybe this is how I wanna live my life. To be random and unpredictable. A colleague told me she is a creature of habit. And her habit is routine. All of us are creatures of habits. My habit is to live life unpredictably. Live like you gonna die tomorrow and you will make sure u are happy today.

The past weekend has been crazy. I was the OIC for my department's Carnival Sales. Being less than 2 months in the company, it was crazy having to coordinate a sales for 70 products. This means a logistics nightmare and also process tragedy. Being new and having people like Senior Managers and even the GM looking to you to give directions and instructions to move things is a pressure. I was at the site of the sales at 7am every morning and was not home till 9pm at nite. Standing on my feet for that long a period was not a joke and with all the stress of running around and making sure things were smooth, I got a very bad headache the very first day. The 2nd day was better and all in, we did pretty well with $50,000 worth of sales over 2 days. Our stretch target was $100,000. But well, this is the first time we are doing it as a company, so we have to start somewhere rite.

In the morning of Saturday, I was driving and I told God confidently, I wanna have a good day hit $100, 000! 4 hours into the sales, things look good. Business was overwhelming and we were running out of stock on certain items and we were shorthanded. Thus, when I went upstairs to the cashiers who were calculating the sales for the first half of the day, i was expecting a huge figure. To my disappointment, the sales was only $11,000! I was like in my heart, what! All the sweat and hard work by my colleagues yielded only $11,000??? For the rest of the day, I was simply very discouraged....my manager and even my GM came over to console me and encouraged me that it was good enough I took up the challenge to organise it since I am new and it was the first time...but I was close too inconsolation.

However, when I was driving home after the first day, I was still very affected when God reminded me of the very simple song "This is the day, This is the day, that the Lord has made. I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it." I then realised when I made the prayer in the morning, I attached my joy for the day to hitting $100,000 in sales instead of rejoicing simply because God made the day. With that realisation, I thank God for the day and for making me realise that if we were to attach our joy to things of the world, we will never be truly happy. We will always want more. More of the wrong things.

I am very tired. Sick. Wanna take MC but still went to work today. Have a lot of things to clear. Less than 2 months but I have to run very fast with the company. The financial situation has not exactly cleared up but it is clearing. I thank God for that and I believe in His time, when I cleared my debts, I will not forget the lessons He taught me so precious about my finances.

Thank you Jesus. When I am far, You draw near.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 7:42 PM

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