SCREAM!

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

I will go to sleep. At least I will feel good for the few hours of sleep.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 1:11 AM

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Saturday, June 05, 2010

I love you but I could not tell you. If one day I ever lose you forever, I will hate myself. But still I cannot tell you.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 9:57 PM

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Sunday, May 23, 2010

I feel like fuck. Seeing her every day is a torment.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 9:42 PM

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Thursday, August 06, 2009

Going to Bandung tomorrow. Hope to just have a short getaway and also booked the tickets for New Zealand in Sep. After that, dun know where to go liao HAHA!

Here's to enjoying your life and spending away your money....after you pay off your obligations of course! Be responsible! HAHA

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 8:39 PM

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Sunday, June 28, 2009

What would it be like at your final breathe you breath in this life?

I think about this all the time. Have I been happy? Have I done most of the things I wanted to? Do I have any regrets?

Some people view thinking about death is negative. But hey, there are only two things that are certain in life, birth and death. So if you do not think about it now, when?

Death does not scare me but death to me brings an end not so importantly to this life, but an end to the things that matter to me, things that I would be reluctant to let go of.

And because of this reluctance, death seems to have an effect of spurring me on. I am 32 this year, honestly, how long more do I have? If I am fortunate and God willing, I would have maybe 32 more go. But I can go anytime, if life has taught us any lessons. And it is precisely this thought that sometimes frustrate me so much.

I am dying, that is true. Everybody is. Every day we live, we are one day closer to death. And there are so many things that need to be done. One thing that is very close to my heart is the sufferings of others. And I marvel at how some people claim to be suffering in Singapore because they live in a small flat etc when there are someone out there in the world who dies of cold because they have to sleep under the bridge in winter. And I hate myself too, because sometimes I am one of those hateful people who complains over the slightest thing and having the slightest gratitude for what I have.

And that is where my frustrations enter. Is that as much as I have the heart, I have done nothing in action. I am still wallowing in my pathetic socio-capitalist self where I work hard to earn my living, to sustain my spending so that I can be enjoying. What the fuck kind of person am I? I may be a bigger hypocrite than anyone out there because those people whom I hate at least are honest about their hypocrisy.

I do not have much time left. And so are you. And that is why I think about the question all the time.

What would it be like at your final breathe you breath in this life?

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 4:07 PM

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Saturday, May 09, 2009

Celebrating Mother's Day today. Not so much of a celebration. Just a dinner at Peach Garden and just good to spend some time with her and my sister and her husband. Ever since my Father passed away last year, it has been a delicate act between my various committments and taking time to pay attention to my Mum. I wished my Dad was still here but no point wishing for that. I just hope my Mum has a happy life always. Happy Mother's Day.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 4:11 PM

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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

HAVE YOU HEARD ME SAY THAT......

1. Taipei was boring? Hualien was excellent but TAIPEI WAS BORING!
2. I love smelling my own fart?
3. I am planning to go to New Zealand in September?
4. EVer since I put up "Honk if you are horny" sign on my car, I realised how many horny bastards and bitches out there driving? Me included.
5. I almost lose every time I do play mahjong?
6. I LOVE LIVERPOOL!
7. I HATE MAN U!
8. I WATCHED LIVERPOOL THRASHED MAN U 4-1!
9. I love music.
10. I am an introvert

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 8:24 PM

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Monday, February 16, 2009

Taking a break...

Taipei, I come liao HOR~~~

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 9:06 AM

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Saturday, February 07, 2009

SO SICK!

So sick of being just A POTENTIAL and never really realising it.

IT SICKENS ME TO THE CORE.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 5:59 AM

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Monday, February 02, 2009

SCREW THE NORMS.....

Its hard to say how I feel towards the new year. Its February now and Chinese New Year is almost over (its over for those who do not bother about the 15 days). I just had my 31st birthday in December and now in 2009, I will be looking to be 32 in December.

Me! 32 years old. You know the problem I have with ageing and with most people in general is that they have preconceived norms about people of certain ages. If you are this age, you should behave your age. Thus when I reached 32, I have high and mighty friends (or should I say, ex-friends) who would say things that does not add value to my life nor does it ease the economic crisis, in other words BULLSHIT. They would say "Hey you are already going to be 32. Why do you still behave like you are a teenager?" "You got to talk lesser crap and learn to be more prudent in what you say."

You know there are so many norms or expected behaviour in this world that I cannot possibly finish listing them.

You are expected to be honest but yet learn to be tactful.
You are supposed to behave what they think as matured when you are of a certain age.
You are supposed to settle down when you reach a certain age.
Your bosses would praise you for being frank but promotes those politically correct bastards who suck up to them.
You are supposed to make alot of money because you have a degree.
You are supposed to be ambitious and climb as high as in the corporate ladder.

I am angry. I am an angsty bastard if you can call me that. I am sometimes so sick of facing people day in and day out who succumb to all these norms in life and pretend to be noble. I sometimes wish I could pressed their fucking faces onto the tarred road and disfigured their fucking faces and made them realise they still look better than how they looked before.

Some people challenged me and asked me, "So you think you are better than them?" No I do not. I just think, compared to most people, I am more accountable to this fucking thing called CONSCIENCE.

SCREW THE NORMS. All of us will go back to where we come from.

Funny But Not A Clown screamed @ 1:57 PM

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